Posted on 2006.03.21 at 08:52
Current Mood: curious
I think I see more of bloody Malfoy then I do Ron, Hermione, and Ginny. There is something very very wrong with that idea. Of course, it seems like he's been following me around so maybe it's not all that surprising. He's going to make me mental with all of his sick and twisted logic. I can't believe he actually thinks he's doing the right bloody thing. HE'S the mental one.
hope you find out the information you need Ginny.
ran into Malfoy skulking around the forbidden forest the other day. McGonnogal is giving me time off in a couple of days, what do you think of really tracking him down then and finding out what he's up to? It's starting to really annoy me. Not that he's capable of anything really but that he's trying.
Posted on 2006.03.03 at 09:20
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: hedwig just brought me a letter
i miss the time when i didn't have to think about how I was going to survive this.
is it wrong when you start just wanting it to happen. I hate this waiting, this isnt really a war, it's more of a very slow torture. war means that things finally get done. I'm nowhere near ready, but i'd rather face voldemort today then go on training for merlin knows how long. It seems like i'm just getting more tired, and he's getting stronger. i'd even be okay with just taking him down with me at this point. When you stop caring about making it out is when you should start to worry.
It's funny the things you start to think about when mcgonnogal is rambling on about his weakness. I've already heard it all from Dumbledore and it's not giving me any real insight this time around either. I wonder whats going on in the common room, i know ginny has been fighting alot with ron. i hope that goes well guys. You know if you need me, well i'll find a way to sneak out. i just keep figuring i'll get done with all of this, i'll finally (maybe) win, we'll win the battle but then where will i be? everyone is going to be so used to me not being around that I might as well not be. Ginny will have moved on, Ron will find someone else to complain about not getting girls with, hermione will have an important job here at hogwarts, even bloody malfoy won't hex me as i cross his path because they've all gotten used to not having me there.
sometimes being forgotten is the worst thing i can imagine. other times it feels like the easiest answer, i'm not ready for the alternative.
did you find the auror training book i left you under the bed? i thought, y'know since you were thinking about trying to be an auror it would be a good birthday gift. How's ginny? i mean really, i know she'll say fine, but how is she?
I miss you. maybe i can get a day off this weekend...
hey, how are you? you'd really love the stuff i'm learning here. i feel like it should be you rather then me. you'd have picked this up so quick already. i'll have to show you the book when i get done.
just didn't want you to feel left out *SMIRK*
Posted on 2006.02.24 at 20:40
Private to Ginny, Ron, and Hermione:
guys, if you've been wondering where I am, McGonnogal has be doing extra lessons, she wants me to start training to become an animagi. She says it would give me one step over Voldemort. If I ever needed to dissapear. Yeah? Does she know me at all? I am not going to run away from any of this.
The git Malfoy actually thought I would play his little game. If he thinks he can back me into throwing a game. what makes him think he would have caught the snitch anyhow? He can't catch it when it matters, why would he be able to catch it now? Some things money can't buy I suppose.
Errrr Ron? Should I hide?
OOC: hi guys, i have limited access. no aim, but i have enough internet to update journals and read them, so i'm limited to playing like this for now. hope it's okay. miss you guys
Posted on 2006.02.16 at 16:02
Current Mood: busy
Really need to have a more permanent friends lock on here, what with Malfoy skulking around, no doubt trying to follow my every bloody move. It really limits what I can say here.
Found out some interesting things while I was gone. I have a meeting with Moody later this week, he wants to look over some stuff with me, I'm loads grateful for his help, I'm not even sure I really know what I'm looking for anymore. This would have been so much easier if...
Right, well I'm a bit behind in some of my classes (Yeah, I know. Not shocking, but this time i really do have an excuse) so Hermione? Could you maybe meet me in the common room tonight?
Alright then, I'm off to find Ginny and Ron, hex Malfoy, and pass some classes. Sounds like a full afternoon to me.
Posted on 2006.01.16 at 16:53
Current Mood: nervous
Friends Locked to Ginny and Hermione
i'm getting ready to go to Godrick's Hollow. I'm...nervous? scared? intimidated. that's the word.
what if i see things there, that belonged to my parents. well, I guess that is a bit of the point. maybe i'll get some sort of bloody...what's the word Hermione usesd? closure. yeah. that would be nice.
but i'm not sure how long i'll be gone. i'll miss you guys though. i'll be back soon enough and i'll be in touch.
Posted on 2005.12.07 at 21:06
Current Mood: cold
Gin and i found our winter ball robes. She picked out these green ones. She'll look fantastic in them, and lets hope i don't look like a slytherin reject.
things have settled down thankfully. it was a hell of a bloody week. i still feel..guilty. that people got hurt and it was all a mess in my head really.
i'm excited about the winter ball. it'll be good fun.
Posted on 2005.11.30 at 09:46
Current Mood: awake
things with ginny are...fantastic. moving along nicely really. everything i'm unsure of she manages to sense and make me feel more confident about it. some things in particular, and no i'm not telling you, nosey journal, and nosier friends list.
that said i need to ask her to the yule ball. i'm sure it's a given we'll go together, but it's nice to ask her properly. it's fun.
been flying in the evenings with chris as well, other then barrelling into each other i think it's really good practice. he keeps me on my toes that's for certain.
Posted on 2005.11.13 at 21:22
Current Mood: lazy
the last few daays have been such a blur. a great blur, but blur none the less.
ginny has been incredible. and amazingly i've been getting all my work done EARLY (merlin forbid) so that i can spend more time with her.
although i'm not doing other things i should be doing. like looking for the other horcrux's. and practicing for quidditch. but it's been worth it if you ask me.
i haven't seen ron in what feels like months though. it's almost eery. and...come to think of it, i haven't seen Malfoy in even longer. NOT that i'm complaining there. I just feel like he's constantly up to something if I don't know where he is. (which is probably the case considering who it is)
alright, going to find Ginny.
Posted on 2005.11.06 at 00:39
Current Mood: content
She was right. I was being idiotic and bloody noble.
Remind me not to make that mistake again.
I have a VERY good feeling about tomorrows match.
Posted on 2005.11.05 at 17:54
Current Mood: stressed
This is ridiculous. Eventually I'm going to not put off all my work until the night before a match, because I know I won't do it after the match. you know when i'll decide to not put off my work? probably in June when it won't do me any kid.
There isn't just enough hours in the bloody day.
I can hear Hermione saying 'I told you so' all the way over here.
Maybe Ron and I can work out some sort of divying it up system so that we can split up some of the work.
Alright Potter, here we go, work for one more hour and then you can go down to the pitch and practice for an hour. good plan.